The Life Of Mark

Why Not - Here's Me

LAYER ONE:

full name: Mark Thomas Williams
birth date: 09/03/1983
birthplace: West Allis, Wisconsin
current location: home, in front of my comp in the office
eye color: brown
hair color: brown
height: 6'0"
righty or lefty: right, and proud of it

LAYER TWO:

your heritage: welsh, german, french - white european basically
the shoes you wore today: Vans
your perfect pizza: half cheeze/half candian bacon with a rich tomato sauce
goal you'd like to achieve: to be part of film crew that would produce a film that would win an academy award

LAYER THREE:

your most overused phrase on AIM: o i c
your thoughts first waking up: 16 more hours until I can go to bed again
your bedtime: whenever i fall asleep
your most missed memory: nearly everything about the LAFSC

LAYER FOUR:

pepsi or coke: i enjoy most pepsi products - i think
mcdonald's or burger king: burger king - i feel less sick
single or group dates: i really don't go on dates - sad
adidas or nike: vans?
iced tea or nestea: neither
chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
cappuccino or coffee: smoothy?

LAYER FIVE:

Do you...

smoke: no
cuss: it can happen, sorry.
sing: too much
take a shower everyday: yes
have a crush: probably, depends what mood I'm in
do you think you've been in love: i'll just say yes on this one
do you want to go to college?: yes, in it actually
like high school: senior year was great
want to get married: yes, very yes, but it can wait
believe in yourself: more recently, yes
think you're attractive: yes...most of the time.
think you're a health freak: not at all
get along with your parent(s): yes
like thunderstorms: they can be fun
play an instrument: yes, mostly percussion

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...

drank alcohol: um - yeah, first time ever i swear, but it was with family
smoked: nope
done a drug: vitamin C
made out: /sigh - nope, never
gone on a date: not an official one and not in the past month
gone to the mall?: no
eaten an entire box of oreos: no
eaten sushi: no
been dumped: no
gone skating: no, man I'm boring
made homemade cookies: no
gone skinny dipping: no
dyed your hair: no
stolen anything: no, man I am really boring

LAYER SEVEN:

Ever...

played a game that required removal of clothing: not that i recall
been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
been caught "doing something": uh, what are you implying?
been called a tease: i've been teased - a lot
gotten beaten up: yes, bastard
changed who you were to fit in: kind of I guess

LAYER EIGHT:

age you hope to be married: i did want to get married at 21 - but that's falling behind so now, 27
numbers and names of children: 2-3, i don't know about names, but I'd like to have a girl named Melody
Describe your dream wedding: biggish, pretty, whatever she wants, maybe near the coast, but it tends to be windy over there
how do you want to die: not painfully, and not waiting on a hospital bed, quick and painless
where you want to go to college: going back to the LAFSC would be nice
what do you want to be when you grow up: secured
what country would you most like to visit: austrailia was fun

LAYER NINE:

Ideal Girl
best eye color?: blue
best hair color?: blond (I know its the classic combo)
short or long hair: long, at least shoulder length
height: as tall or shorter
best weight: 115-165 - that covers a good range
best articles of clothing: whatever she likes, not too big on clothing - unless its crap
best first date location: a date, what's that?
best first kiss location: uh, sorry, haven't gotten that far yet

My body hurts. I didn't get all the shots I wanted to done. Scheduling 8 other peoples schedules on top of my own is not my forte. I'm flying off the seat of my pants. Its not going to be perfect.

Damn its good to be a film maker. :)

Oh yeah, I'm going to LA. Later Oregon...hello Hollywood.

God, give me the strength to not only get through this project, not only this school year...but the rest of my life.

Amen.

I posted this as a response on behalf my dear friend Ben and I thought I would share it with the 5 people that actually will read my journal. (Some material has been altered since the orignal). If you want to know the context of the post look through bentastic's journal and you'll stumble upon a entry that reads Kerry 1, Bush 0 (which, for the record, I don't entirely agree with). My post is a reply to a comment that was made.

This post is more for vicki's sake than anyone elses. Now I know where you're coming from vicki because I have been there myself (and I admit I'm still there most of the time). I'm a conservative Christian and the reasons you're voting for Bush are fairly similar to the reasons I'll probably be voting for Bush. So it must boggle the mind...how could a Christian vote for Kerry (gasp)?

First let me start off by saying that trying to label God as a conservative or a liberal isn't the best thing in the world. You can't fit God into a box or a political scheme. You can't say He's one way or the other...He's God. He's bigger and more important than this whole political scheme. Personally, it bothers me a little to see so many people passionate about something that will only really effect the next four years compared to something that will effect all of eternity (not getting you guys down at all, just commenting on the world as a whole).

Anyways, back on topic. So does voting for Kerry make my friend Ben less of a Christian (I'm not saying you were vicki, I'm just making my case)? No it doesn't. I've watched Ben grow in his faith in amazing ways through the past four years and it has even inspired me at times. Do agree with him politically? Not at all...and trust me on this I've tried convincing him. I still have trouble understanding him at times, but that's okay. The reason why I think our friend Ben votes Democrat (and this is just my 2 cents on it) is because one of his chief core values is personal & civil liberties. Me on the other hand one of my core values is morality (i guess this would be in the traditional sense...but I don't see it as that). I'm I saying that Ben doesn't value morality, no not at all and he's made that very clear. I'm just saying how we approach it, i guess, is different. I'm not opposed to civil liberties as a whole, but often in this day and age I feel they come with a cost that usually that ties into morality. Call me a bigot if you will, but that's how I feel about it.

Alright, hopefully you were able to understand that some what and understand my friend a little bit more. In all honestly I probably agree with you politically a lot more than I do Ben, but still I want you to understand Ben and where he's coming from.

So yeah...gosh its been so long since I wrote in my journal I forget what to even write about. So I'm working at a fish lab again. I have to say that even though science in general is not entirely that interesting to me the facility I work out is way cool (in a comparative sense). Seriously, I think about my fellow classmates having to work outside in the out sun or in a boring office and then I think about where I work and what I get to do. I don't know, it just seems cooler to me. After I'm done feeding I can walk over to the big tanks and watch the really really big fish swim around and do their thing. It's fun. Not saying I want to become a scientist in any shape or fashion. In fact when I ask the grad students or the PhD people that work there a question they go into this big long winded explanation that I just don't care that much about. Egh, whatever.

As some of you recall I have the tendency to have very vivid dreams. If I try really hard I can remember all the details of a single dream I have. For the past week I've been having multiple vivid dreams night after night. Then tend to be really interesting. I can't tell any now because I didn't take the effort to remember them. But so yeah, I just woke up from a nap... a guessed what I dreamed about? Working at the fish lab. And better yet, what I did today at the fish lab. It was really boring I must say and I'm disappointed with my imagine.

Okay, I just looked at my left hand I'm starting to worry. You see, on DaySpring tour my friends Mindy and Shara decided to challenge me to some kind of man test or something. Foolishly, I accepted. They grabbed my left hand and dumped salt on it. Then they placed an ice cube on my hand and held it down. Eventually it began to sting and burn, but I was up to the challenge because I'm tough (yeah right). In time I asked it would leave a mark and they said maybe in which I grabbed my hand out of there. It did leave a mark initially and you know what... its still there. I can see the shape of the ice cube still on my hand even now as I type. I mean, I'm worried about it in the sense that it is a mark on my hand and I wonder if it will ever go away. However, every time I look at it I think of my two good friends and I laugh a little. So its no big deal, but still...

So what's on Mark's agenda for tonight? More capturing and watching TV...same as usual. Seriously, I need to find something to do on the weekdays. Weekends tend to be more exciting, but the weekdays...they make me feel like a slug.

Alright, later all.

I have to say...I'm a little surprised. I'm glad I am still somewhat conservative, but I view myself now more of a moderate because I am not really a republican anymore and I have a huge apathy towards politics in general. Oh well...um..yeah...way to go improving people individually and such...

Where do you fall on the liberal - conservative political spectrum? (United States)
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Here are the total's from Benny Boy's Oscar Predictions:

1 shoelacedreamer@phayze.com 16
1 Sparkage 16
3 Bentastic 14
4 Kyle 13
5 Fritzomus 12
6 Nick 11

Chalk one up for the film major. No for reals, I admit I guessed on a lot of them and number of the movies I actually didn't see such as Mystic River and Master and Commander. I want to thank Ben for setting it up, it was lots of fun. Thanks Benny Boy (sorry, I didn't mean to sound like I was gloating).

I didn't watch the awards show because I was busy finishing a movie of mine own. It looks like I may be done except for some reshoots (but I might be able to hide the mistakes).

Well, I have to get my treatment done. Later all.
~Mark Williams

Wow...all I have to say is wow. God is awesome. As I mentioned before my dear friend Drew was diagnosed with having a brain anurism. He went in to be tested on this tuesday. The doctors were pretty sure that it was an anurism and they would have to operate, but they did the test to make sure (procedure). A lot of people had been praying for Drew. During choir, when he was going for his test, the whole choir spent some time in silent prayer for Drew. The test results came in negative...they couldn't find evidence of an anurism...its as if he didn't have one. The doctors had no clue what happened, but we believe that God healed him. He was suppose to be in the hospital for at least another week, but he is now conformtably back at home!! Wow...that's all I can say is wow!
~Mark Williams

sparkyfbc

Black Moore

Agility
2

Strength
9

Stamina
2

Battle Rating
13

Origins
sparkyfbc was purchased at a national chain Pet Super-Store

Couldn't beat Ben...shoot. Slow, stupid and Strong...that sounds like the opposite of me...but oh well.

Did my filming, it looked good. Did DaySpring Chapel today and that went really well for the most part. I was all stressed relieved so I took a nap. I woke to discover that my dear dear friend Drew, the sound man for DaySpring, had a brain anurism (spelling) today. It was minor and they say he'll be okay, but they may have to opeate. I know there is a reason for all of this, but still at the same time I can't help but worry for my dear friend. Drew has been a father for me in a loose sense and taught me many of a lesson. For those you pray I ask that you pray for him and his wife. For those who don't...anytime is a good time to start.
~Mark Williams

Holy I never update anymore. I am BUSY. This is what I have to do in the order of importance.

1. Prepare and film first minute of 3 minute mood piece (this sounds simple...but it's actually quite a lot of work. Getting the equipment, getting the right lighting, knowing the shots I am going to use, knowing and reserving the locations, etc. etc.)
2. Finish the inciting incident and act 1 climax for my script. Act one is suppose to be about 8 pages and I'm at 11 and not even done...so I might be over doing it, but what is coming out is very very nice.
3. Memorize Claurence's part from Richard III by the end of the week.
4. Film other project and edit that with group (this will take a long time. In groups people tend to argue about what's best where as when I do it by myself I am quick and know what I want. Bah!)
5. Do all my DaySpring stuff which is a lot of time.
6. Learn choir music.
7. Learn band music.
8. Do the rest of the work for my other classes.
9. Try to keep in my reading...but this isn't likely to happen.

So yeah, Busy busy busy. Never thought I would ever be this busy, but this the good kind of busy. The kind of busy where I am learning things firsthand and creating stuff that I like. So, yeah, I got that going on.

I hope to talk to you guys soon.

Later.

Hmm...I really don't see myself as Antonio...but oh well.

Sparkyfbc in Secret Agent Cubed

In this non-stop spy thriller,

sparkyfbc (Antonio Banderas) is a retired secret agent with a secret. He needs to protect

bentastic (Denzel Washington) before the vile

coffeeromance (Kiefer Sutherland) brainwashes him. With guns blazing, he demolishes a hidden facility stealthily. Voted by many as marginally better than pro-wrestling.

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So its been a long time since my last entry. I don't have a good excuse except that I was busy during the school year from time to time. During the time I probably did have time to enter an entry I didn't have anything to say. But to those who do read my entries just to let you know when I thought of something deep I did think about it in the form of a journal entry.

So I'm going back to school tomorrow..and I am actually dreading it. I actually don't start school for another week, but I have to go up early for choir tour (DaySpring is going with them, I'm not in choir). I don't know why I am dreading it so much...probalby its because I don't want to do work anymore. I am also worried about my future for once..egh...I know what I want to do, but I am not sure if I can do it. I mean, Fox isn't the greatest film school in the world...the program is actually pretty small. But I realized that I don't have to go to the best school in the world in order to do well. Why do I worry? I know I am taken care of, but still...i do it...i grow wary of it, yet i somewhat rely on it. /Rolls his eyes.

I do well though in a lot of ways. I'm reaching a point life where I am learning to be satisfied with being single. I'm not entirely there yet, but its where I need to go in order to grow up.

I went to Laura Dunn's news years party and I have to say I got a lot out if it. It was fun and I got to see a lot of old friends. I kind of felt like a bad friend however. I lost contact with a number of those people and I haven't kept up with them. It was good to see them all. Its funny at times I don't feel like a good Christian, but when I was at that party I felt more like a Christian. I'm not saying that I am better than those people in anyway, it just felt good to love on those people the way I think God would have wanted me to. It was refreshing in a sense.

I am so worried about going back up tomorrow. I have to be up at Fox by 6 and I probably can't leave until 3. The weather has SUCKED lately. I'm afraid of the roads being closed or some time of accident occuring...gosh...but I'll have faith that I'll get through. I might not be able to get all my stuff up there, but I'll make it.

Well, I'll miss all you c-towners. Eric, Brian, Sesh, Steve, First B group, please come visit me...I'll show you a good time...in newberg...meaning we'll go to shari's. God Bless you all...I'm going to look a photo albums.

I found this interesting. My roommate actually says that he could see me making a premediated murder. I guess that's a good thing. He says I am clevear and a perfectionist. It would clean and well thought out. That's nice......
fdss

Hello, (insert name here)! The whole world would
know you by your birth name. You would not have
a special name, or you would not be unknown.
Everything you do would be recognized. You
would leave things in the open. You hate
getting caught in things you do, since it may
tend to happen a lot. That is why, I must say,
that you would probably get caught faster and
easier than usual. You may just be famous for
your slaughters, and then forgotten after
you're off the streets.

What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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Okay, I need to force myself to do this.

Recently, I have been convincted in regards to where my life is heading, namely my vocation or calling if you will. It is something I am definetly struggling with. Right now I am studying to be a film major and I desire to go into the film industry. However, at times I feel I am suppose to be a pastor. Last night and two saturdays ago I couldn't fall asleep and I felt that God wanted to talk to me (for some reason He chooses 1:30 in the morning, for what reason I don't know). The idea of what to do with my life came up and I just felt convicted. At times I think I am called to be a pastor. Part of this is from a dream I had as a young child. When I was little I asked God what I suppose to be. In time I had a dream in which there great darkness and distruction all around, but I walked through it by God's side and He protected me. While we walked he told me that I was suppose to be a pastor (I think...). So I wrestled with this issue because there are certain things that I want in my life and being a pastor isn't exactly what I wanted. I want to serve the Lord...but a pastor? In all honestly...being a pastor is one of the last things I want to be. I was even more convicted in church last sunday. Pastor Tim talked about not saying no to God and letting him have any part of your life. He talked about how the last thing he wanted to be was a pastor. He said what he really wanted to be (and here's the kicker)... a film maker! Pastor Tim is kind of like me too. We wear the same kinds of cloths (we wear the same brand of shoes) and he is a rocker.

So I've struggled with this issue. What am I suppose to be? I've come to place where I need to be open to God's will and not shut off his presence. I need to abide in him. I do feel called to be a leader (in a church or in the work place I don't know)...but a pastor I am still not sure about. I realize that God has made me in such a way that my personality, my passions, me as a person will match my vocation. My vocation will not fail to match me as person. I also realize that the spiritual demands of a film maker are no less demanding than those of a pastor. The film industry is in needs of Christians and in some sense I could be a pastor through the art of cinema. But still... is that God's will or is that my malupulation of it? Or should not worry and trust that God will guide me and that choosing a life in film can be vocation. I also need to realize not to confuse the concepts of career and vocation, because they are so often...confused. I feel I need to be open and let God guide me. I am going to continue to study film, but be more aware of the decisions I make when it comes to it and not say no to God.

I also realize (man I've realized a lot the past few weeks) that I need to be challeneged and maybe that is the whole point...the idea of not being complacent and be open to God. Maybe I am not suppose to be pastor. Maybe this whole thing is the idea that I should follow God's will for my life and not my own. I can still be a film maker and still be following the will of God...if that is His will. So now I've been put of challenge. Whereas I am uneasy I have hope it will be okay in the end.

So for those who are Christians I ask that you be praying for me. For those who aren't I hope you find truth and encouragement in this.

So...that's how I am ending this entry. God Bless.
~Mark Williams

Wow...this is pretty accurate. Not completely... I haven't been scarred really at all, but what it says as a whole is pretty close.

Season = Autumn

You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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I'll post one day. I am ashamed, you guys post like almost every day and I just never get around to it. Oh well...

Athena

Athena

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Dear Journal,
Hi its me Doug. Wow, it was a great day today in Bluffington. Skeeter and I saw The Beats live with Patty and Bee Bee. Unfortunately, Roger was also there and he brought his stupid cat Stinky with him, but luckily Porkchop was there to chase her away. Altogether, it was an awesome event.

Okay, back to reality here. Seriously, my mind is full of useless cartoon trivia that will never be put to real use...but its still nice to have.

Today was a pretty good day. Dave, Beth and Keith (also referred to as Keifer) came to visit me and Laura. We went out to lunch, saw a movie, went to dinner. I've known those guys for so many years its not even funny. I've basically known Dave my whole life. The laughs and stories we tell over and over again are priceless. All of us have so many inside jokes that we can't even count how many there are. It is friends like those you need to hold on to.
So we were coming back from Sherwood from the movies and we stopped in at Fox cause I thought I was dropping them off. We talked about getting dinner and decided on Pizza. There aren't too many pizza parlors in Newberg. The two that I knew of they didn't want to eat at, so we drove back to sherwood and ate at the pizza place across from the movie theater! Then, as we were just about to get back to Fox we noticed another pizza place! Gosh...life is weird.

So I did something today that I thought I would never do. That's right...I...joined band. I honestly think it will be good for me, both musically and probably socially. I am nervous about it though for 2 reasons. 1 is time commitment. 1st term its not that much, but still its still more time I have to commit to. 2nd is the fact that I've never done this kind of music/percussion. I am just not too confident in my ability...but I know I can probably catch on. So yeah...life is changing for me...but I think it will be a good change.

You know, I have so many thoughts regarding the control emotions have over people and the cowardice nature of men (and I mean men, not human kind) in our modern society (I'm not talking about any in specific, if I am its probably myself), but I just don't feel like typing them out.

Later all.

Tuesday and Wednesday of this week I have to say were really great days. On Tuesday I went to Nordstroms with DaySpring to pick out our outfits. It was really cool because we had our own personal designer fashion lady to help us and to get our stuff and to take our measurements. It was sweet and while looking around for cloths I ran into an old friend formerly known as Betsy Henchide (I don't know her married name and I probably spelled Henchide wrong). It was great to see her and to briefly catch up. T if you are reading this do you have her e-mail so I can let her know about DaySpring performances or whatever? Afterwords we went to Red Robin and that ...was...soooooooooooooo....good! I Love Red Robin! And what happened was pretty cool too. We prayed right before our meal and our waitress saw us and we started to talk to her about going to church. She was looking for a home church and we gave her some names and we exchanged contact info. When we were getting up they were asking who wanted her number to contact her and immediately everyone said, "No, Mark, you can't have her number." I love the DaySpring members, they are the greatest crew and it is my greatest honor to be in a band with them. They are so loving and supportive of me and they know who I am as a person. They treat me like I want to be treated, which is awesome. I am very blessed to have them in my life. So Tuesday was good.

Wednesday was Serve Day here at fox. I spent my time "removing invasive speeches" from woodhaven park in Sherwood. Basically, I was snipping blackberry bushes all day, which was pretty fun actually. I did it with like 40 other people and it was great. Me and my roommates kind of made a game out it. You know how little boys play? It was kind of like that. We were going after the enemy and what not. It was fun. I learned quickly that you shouldn't pull on the vines that are nestled in the trees because they could be wrapped around branches and they could break. I didn't break anything big (at least it wasn't entirely my fault) but my friend katie didn't listen to my advice and took off a rather large branch. The organization we were working for, ironically enough, was called friends of trees.

So the past couple of days were good. I would write more, but I have precious reading that I must attend to. I'll talk about how I feel later, but, for the most part, I feel pretty good. I'm learning not to let my negative emotions defeat me. Well, that's it for now, later.

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